Alfie..Aliff.. Sheer Similirarity..

u guys watched d movie alfie? bt d guy who dumps n date girls n in the end he becomes d losing one..? bt after all he realises his mistakes n changes for the better?

let me tell you bt me. mayb I AM him(alfie) in real life. i deal wif too many hearts.break too many hearts. No iz not i date n dump. iz juz sumting in me tellin she's not d one. period. but till when? till when does it stop at tat juz one gurl? watz happenin to me?? y d utter inrecognisable luv-hate in me? am i still stung by my previous luv..? iz been 8 months n i find myself frm 1 girl to another. all in the pretense of dating n leaving. none remained onli a few(count wif my fingers..) did i do wrong.? NO. did they do wrong? NO? so y?

I cant afford to break any1 heart anymore. dun mention to me abt love. today is valentine's day. it doesnt mean a thing to me. i cant fall in luv n tatz it. mayb i can but i cant sustain it. i keep leavin.. wat ppl says, mayb it aint time yet. i guess its pretty true.. all im doin is forcin luv to happen. in fact it doesnt. n yes i end up hurtin others n me..AGAIN. so y rush? y d hush? itz time to sit back n reflect.. ALIFF.. sit down.. n reminisce..

A step a time will do juz fine.

Hey.. iz been a while since ive last updated. well hush hush update, evrytin been goin on pretty smoothly tis week - or shuld i say last week. heh! =p i attended sch (haha i did??!) n deferred my ns. lolx escape escape. work is ok hectic but still fun. my pay was a bit shocking-ly.. high. *gulps* *grins*. alhamdullilah thank d god for wat he has given me. as for me n my "life", iz been cool, more to d bright side. im glad to know tat myself. well i went out today wif a gurl whom i shall juz call mary jane. haha. here goes.

i got off today (monday) n mayb u havent heard my bike was supposedly faulty bt thank god itz onli a minor fault. so i contemplated on d idea of draggin sum1 wit me. hehe. n so came my saviour. MJ. haha. well it was a great day nevertheless tiring. i decarb my pipe (it runs smoother now), got a KTM chainguard n changed sprocket. Nt forgetin my "wan cheng" signal lights. haha!

i pitied MJ for havin to wait so long for my 1st change of sprocket. nevertheless we had our dinner after tat. shuld i say i had my dinner. MJ had eaten oredi. as usual bugis, chicken rice jugak. haha. we talked bt lotsa stuff.. sigh makes me feel luved again man.. bt too bad shes attached. haha.

next we headed to kaki bukit to get my pipe decarb. i knew tis shop mechanic udin. very frenly guy n funny too. haha.. evrytin ended like 11 after which i sent MJ home. a great day wif a great girl!

as usual, being aliff, i tink of wat had happen juz now my outing n stuff.. well sumtimes frens do come in handy in providing tat soul comfort u need. N i got mine perfectly fine. thanks to MJ. i still owe u 1. to u peepz who tink im a playboy, cmmon.. im single. im nt havin a fling. iz havin a fren for accomplice anythin wrong? i doubt so. happens tat frens are gurls. =p tink wutcha want i dun care. well i guess tatz it. evrytin is bt takin things a step at a time - relationship..frenz..bikechanges.. n ME.. gd nyte!

Relieved.Tired.Thankful.
listening "through the rain by mariah carey"

today was like so deadbet tiring. i juz got back frm hm.standard procedures. bath eat computer. tatz it. nevertheless i went out wif ly yesterday. watch a movie titled "alfie". damn tat movie reali makes u sit back n think. which i feel suits me really well. u guyz shuld watch it. recommended by ME. ouh get prepared ur TISSUES.. it DOES make u cry or shed a tear or two. i juz wanna quote wat Jude Law - the main actor said..

"You have evryting in life..You have money in ur pockets. You have d looks. Life is nuthin but delightful havin evrytin. But then again, that EVERYTHING means NOTHING if you dont have a piece of mind. Thats wher u start and think.."

So wat dya tink? True.. i tink it suits me real well.. i have tat "evryting" bt do i have a piece of mind? i find myself tossin arnd bed till wee hrs in d morn.. tinkin. alwayz tinking. wat purpose? enuf said. im fine as always. to those who read n showed concern, my many thanks for understanding.

iz werk again tmr. i need to have tat right piece of mind when werking. nearly had an accident juz now due to my lack of focus on d road. my eyes were on d traffic bt my mind was elsewhere.. sigh.. aite taz all for now. ive to turn to my bed. usual session of tossing. gd nyte and "sweet dreamz.."

It Comes N Go.. Again..

Well, i jus got back frm werk.. haha today was a bit tiring. mayb coz its a sunday n there was quite a number of orders. nevertheless time passes by so quickly and in d blink of an eye its like 11pm. time go home.. haha instead of heading home, i headed to seletar dam..

my fellas riders frm ph includin me went to seletar. motive was jus to sit down n talk.. haha end up we went to jalan kayu. wan suggested we took the shortcut way.. so aper lagik.. mcm racer la satu2.. haha its been sum time i had tat kinda fun. go riding n stuff.. haha motor scrambler da mcm moto sports bike. lol!

and so we reached jalan kayu.. had my ice milo and nasi ayam sambal.. i dunno watz wif me and nasi ayam. haha. while i was waitin for my order to come, "she" msg-ed me.. juz a gd nyte msg.. u know sumting.. there is this phrase which goes.. " To you that sum1 may mean d world to you, bt to tat sum1 ur juz a fren.." eva heard of tat? well tat was wat i tot.. sigh.. bt at least she had tought of me. tatz gd enuf. haha. then at d corner of my eyes noticed tis girl wif her family. damnz her face was exactly like d singer Norazela.. very sweet.. once again, bein d lame me.. no courage to go ask.. so wat to do juz sit down admire her frm afar.. at d end of the day.. im back here sittin in front of my comp.. well it alwayz come n go. bt one thing i know for sure.. if tat sum1 comes to me.. im gonna luv her till i drop.. gd nyte!

first i would like to say. S.M.I.L.E coz it takes only 16 muscles to do tat.. n guess wat.. smiling do take off some of ur troubled mind away.. hehe.. well let me tell u y..

my fren came over, we dwnld some song and d next min.. we said letz go town mayb take a walk or sumting n have our dinner.. btw it was d whole long sat i sat at home. boy i sure need some life. so off we headed to town..

damnz at town u bet there was alot of ppl. nvrtheless i wouldnt wan to elaborate much on d town. wat makes me smile n had a gd laugh was towards our dinner..

we (nas,afiah and me) had our dinner at east coast fd centre.. we had some satay n some chicken rice.. damn d food was good.. and so was d chix over there.. hahaha.. i had a gd laugh wif ma mates u know sharin bt stuffs.. personal n interpersonal.. haha u know wat i mean. n d hot topic was SOTONG. Y SOTONG?..

Well nas said, u know these coastguards they spent months at sea or navy personel.. so to ease themselves (gonch-ang) they fuc*ed a sotong.. u know sotong have these round opening.. hahahha.!!!! dirty2.. bt iz true.. ask around. so d topic was sotong.. sikit2 jer.. "kau gi main sotong la!" haha!!

next we proceeded to tis fitness corner.. shed some sweat a bit la.. pull up la.. haha.. i tried the foot reflexology. damn it was painful bt gd for blood circulation. heh! :p n d funniest part of d day is...

ther was tis family.. a chinese one i wuld add.. they were tryin out d foot reflex thingy. n u know to walk they hav tis support bar.. so this clumsy son of theirs. tried to somersault usin d bar as a support.. n guess wat.. he mistimed his ssault.. n goossh! landed on d protuding stones!!! hahaha!! n then blood was oozin out.. gosh it was eery.. n d parents was like.. "aiyah aiyah!!! " hahaha.. wat a joke man..

oh well a nice joke to end a pretty boring bt nice day.. i sure had some laugh.. takes my mind off d "status" thingy.. n ya... listen to tis..

" i dont wanna fight over this thing no more..
i luv u i luv u its u i adore..
coz iz U tat matters.... ooo baby.."

Boring.Lame.Silent. --- Thats hw i would describe my saturday. iz one of thos rare days i get an off.. n guess wat.. no plans. nevertheless, no plans means money saved. soo a blessin in disguise huh.. fine i'll buy it.

to start it off, i got online wif tis gurl.. tat "5 yrs back" one. haha.. wat a hilarious moment. shant describe into details. tis is a blog - ONLINE- in caps. so tat means any1 can read it.. letz juz say tat nuthin has been changed man. d big diff was i didnt knew her last time bt now i do.. haha..

nxt up is again bt me.. ive been tinking lately.. hw do one survive a week of lonliness? mayb i dun feel it coz im werkin bt late at night i find myself roamin d net without a purpose.. or sumtimes jus starin at d wall.. tinking afar.. my quesns ar still unanswered.. well again.. time has proven to be my best fren.. -in forgettin my qualms and dilemma-.

iz been a long long time huh.. i dunno wat i was missing. bt gd news first. i hav a job. at least ther's some income. next up.. i dunno watz wrong wif me recently or izzit juz d world. im at d lowest pt of my life. i have my bike my family my frens my money.. evrytin a guy can wan... bt then again.. im unhappy.. y? the key word is L.O.V.E.. Sumtimes it feels that life is much better wifout it bt then again wifout love thers no life..

Y am i talkin bt tis suddenly..? i dunnoe.. i used to like tis gurl whom i saw always when i was in secondary sch.. tat was like 5 yrs back.. n back then i didnt have enuf courage to ask her name or anytin.. n guess wat? i know her now.. after 5 damn yrs.. n d gd news is shes attached.. so im out of d "love-trap". then again.. AM i Happy?.. question mark question mark..

next up.. i find myself askin.. wat am i doin.. wats my purpose.. wat do i need in a girl.. y shuld i be attached.. i dun seem to find any answers.. im confused.. if i like a girl, shuld i go after her? or shuld i juz sit back n watch her go away? y shuld we guys always do the chasin.? nw i juz feel like sittin back n reminisce my lost time.. A gurl.. y do they exists..? question mark question mark..

lastly.. y am i feelin tis way? am i in love? i dunno.. it feels tat thers nuthin quite much left in luvin sum1.. simple layman term.. I GIV UP..

A very happy new yr to all my blog viewers. ok u muz be curious how my countdown was like? alrite im doin up a webbie ok it. will keep u guyz updated. hehe.

next up, today is ma mums birthday. well iz been sum time since i last bought her sumthing. so i guess i reali needed to buy her sumtin since im workin alredi. this morning she showed me a swensens cake but told me it was too exp. i said juz get a normal cake. hehe. oh boy.. was she contented when i bought her a swensen ice cream cake (black forest chocolate cake). forget d price. it aint even worth a bit of my love towards her. oh well she might nag n nag at me but hey if shes not ther to nag, who would rite? =p she turned 40 today n i juz doakan semoga umurnya panjang n dijauhi segala penyakit insya-allah. well taz all for now gotta eat cake wif my family. hehehe.. laterz.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUM!