Revamp.Revisited.Reborn

2005-02-14T02:49:00.000+08:00

Alfie..Aliff.. Sheer Similirarity..

u guys watched d movie alfie? bt d guy who dumps n date girls n in the end he becomes d losing one..? bt after all he realises his mistakes n changes for the better?

let me tell you bt me. mayb I AM him(alfie) in real life. i deal wif too many hearts.break too many hearts. No iz not i date n dump. iz juz sumting in me tellin she's not d one. period. but till when? till when does it stop at tat juz one gurl? watz happenin to me?? y d utter inrecognisable luv-hate in me? am i still stung by my previous luv..? iz been 8 months n i find myself frm 1 girl to another. all in the pretense of dating n leaving. none remained onli a few(count wif my fingers..) did i do wrong.? NO. did they do wrong? NO? so y?

I cant afford to break any1 heart anymore. dun mention to me abt love. today is valentine's day. it doesnt mean a thing to me. i cant fall in luv n tatz it. mayb i can but i cant sustain it. i keep leavin.. wat ppl says, mayb it aint time yet. i guess its pretty true.. all im doin is forcin luv to happen. in fact it doesnt. n yes i end up hurtin others n me..AGAIN. so y rush? y d hush? itz time to sit back n reflect.. ALIFF.. sit down.. n reminisce..

2005-02-08T22:28:00.000+08:00

A step a time will do juz fine.

Hey.. iz been a while since ive last updated. well hush hush update, evrytin been goin on pretty smoothly tis week - or shuld i say last week. heh! =p i attended sch (haha i did??!) n deferred my ns. lolx escape escape. work is ok hectic but still fun. my pay was a bit shocking-ly.. high. *gulps* *grins*. alhamdullilah thank d god for wat he has given me. as for me n my "life", iz been cool, more to d bright side. im glad to know tat myself. well i went out today wif a gurl whom i shall juz call mary jane. haha. here goes.

i got off today (monday) n mayb u havent heard my bike was supposedly faulty bt thank god itz onli a minor fault. so i contemplated on d idea of draggin sum1 wit me. hehe. n so came my saviour. MJ. haha. well it was a great day nevertheless tiring. i decarb my pipe (it runs smoother now), got a KTM chainguard n changed sprocket. Nt forgetin my "wan cheng" signal lights. haha!

i pitied MJ for havin to wait so long for my 1st change of sprocket. nevertheless we had our dinner after tat. shuld i say i had my dinner. MJ had eaten oredi. as usual bugis, chicken rice jugak. haha. we talked bt lotsa stuff.. sigh makes me feel luved again man.. bt too bad shes attached. haha.

next we headed to kaki bukit to get my pipe decarb. i knew tis shop mechanic udin. very frenly guy n funny too. haha.. evrytin ended like 11 after which i sent MJ home. a great day wif a great girl!

as usual, being aliff, i tink of wat had happen juz now my outing n stuff.. well sumtimes frens do come in handy in providing tat soul comfort u need. N i got mine perfectly fine. thanks to MJ. i still owe u 1. to u peepz who tink im a playboy, cmmon.. im single. im nt havin a fling. iz havin a fren for accomplice anythin wrong? i doubt so. happens tat frens are gurls. =p tink wutcha want i dun care. well i guess tatz it. evrytin is bt takin things a step at a time - relationship..frenz..bikechanges.. n ME.. gd nyte!

2005-02-04T01:49:00.000+08:00

Relieved.Tired.Thankful.
listening "through the rain by mariah carey"

today was like so deadbet tiring. i juz got back frm hm.standard procedures. bath eat computer. tatz it. nevertheless i went out wif ly yesterday. watch a movie titled "alfie". damn tat movie reali makes u sit back n think. which i feel suits me really well. u guyz shuld watch it. recommended by ME. ouh get prepared ur TISSUES.. it DOES make u cry or shed a tear or two. i juz wanna quote wat Jude Law - the main actor said..

"You have evryting in life..You have money in ur pockets. You have d looks. Life is nuthin but delightful havin evrytin. But then again, that EVERYTHING means NOTHING if you dont have a piece of mind. Thats wher u start and think.."

So wat dya tink? True.. i tink it suits me real well.. i have tat "evryting" bt do i have a piece of mind? i find myself tossin arnd bed till wee hrs in d morn.. tinkin. alwayz tinking. wat purpose? enuf said. im fine as always. to those who read n showed concern, my many thanks for understanding.

iz werk again tmr. i need to have tat right piece of mind when werking. nearly had an accident juz now due to my lack of focus on d road. my eyes were on d traffic bt my mind was elsewhere.. sigh.. aite taz all for now. ive to turn to my bed. usual session of tossing. gd nyte and "sweet dreamz.."

2005-01-31T02:34:00.000+08:00

It Comes N Go.. Again..

Well, i jus got back frm werk.. haha today was a bit tiring. mayb coz its a sunday n there was quite a number of orders. nevertheless time passes by so quickly and in d blink of an eye its like 11pm. time go home.. haha instead of heading home, i headed to seletar dam..

my fellas riders frm ph includin me went to seletar. motive was jus to sit down n talk.. haha end up we went to jalan kayu. wan suggested we took the shortcut way.. so aper lagik.. mcm racer la satu2.. haha its been sum time i had tat kinda fun. go riding n stuff.. haha motor scrambler da mcm moto sports bike. lol!

and so we reached jalan kayu.. had my ice milo and nasi ayam sambal.. i dunno watz wif me and nasi ayam. haha. while i was waitin for my order to come, "she" msg-ed me.. juz a gd nyte msg.. u know sumting.. there is this phrase which goes.. " To you that sum1 may mean d world to you, bt to tat sum1 ur juz a fren.." eva heard of tat? well tat was wat i tot.. sigh.. bt at least she had tought of me. tatz gd enuf. haha. then at d corner of my eyes noticed tis girl wif her family. damnz her face was exactly like d singer Norazela.. very sweet.. once again, bein d lame me.. no courage to go ask.. so wat to do juz sit down admire her frm afar.. at d end of the day.. im back here sittin in front of my comp.. well it alwayz come n go. bt one thing i know for sure.. if tat sum1 comes to me.. im gonna luv her till i drop.. gd nyte!

2005-01-30T02:59:00.000+08:00

first i would like to say. S.M.I.L.E coz it takes only 16 muscles to do tat.. n guess wat.. smiling do take off some of ur troubled mind away.. hehe.. well let me tell u y..

my fren came over, we dwnld some song and d next min.. we said letz go town mayb take a walk or sumting n have our dinner.. btw it was d whole long sat i sat at home. boy i sure need some life. so off we headed to town..

damnz at town u bet there was alot of ppl. nvrtheless i wouldnt wan to elaborate much on d town. wat makes me smile n had a gd laugh was towards our dinner..

we (nas,afiah and me) had our dinner at east coast fd centre.. we had some satay n some chicken rice.. damn d food was good.. and so was d chix over there.. hahaha.. i had a gd laugh wif ma mates u know sharin bt stuffs.. personal n interpersonal.. haha u know wat i mean. n d hot topic was SOTONG. Y SOTONG?..

Well nas said, u know these coastguards they spent months at sea or navy personel.. so to ease themselves (gonch-ang) they fuc*ed a sotong.. u know sotong have these round opening.. hahahha.!!!! dirty2.. bt iz true.. ask around. so d topic was sotong.. sikit2 jer.. "kau gi main sotong la!" haha!!

next we proceeded to tis fitness corner.. shed some sweat a bit la.. pull up la.. haha.. i tried the foot reflexology. damn it was painful bt gd for blood circulation. heh! :p n d funniest part of d day is...

ther was tis family.. a chinese one i wuld add.. they were tryin out d foot reflex thingy. n u know to walk they hav tis support bar.. so this clumsy son of theirs. tried to somersault usin d bar as a support.. n guess wat.. he mistimed his ssault.. n goossh! landed on d protuding stones!!! hahaha!! n then blood was oozin out.. gosh it was eery.. n d parents was like.. "aiyah aiyah!!! " hahaha.. wat a joke man..

oh well a nice joke to end a pretty boring bt nice day.. i sure had some laugh.. takes my mind off d "status" thingy.. n ya... listen to tis..

" i dont wanna fight over this thing no more..
i luv u i luv u its u i adore..
coz iz U tat matters.... ooo baby.."

2005-01-29T16:38:00.000+08:00

Boring.Lame.Silent. --- Thats hw i would describe my saturday. iz one of thos rare days i get an off.. n guess wat.. no plans. nevertheless, no plans means money saved. soo a blessin in disguise huh.. fine i'll buy it.

to start it off, i got online wif tis gurl.. tat "5 yrs back" one. haha.. wat a hilarious moment. shant describe into details. tis is a blog - ONLINE- in caps. so tat means any1 can read it.. letz juz say tat nuthin has been changed man. d big diff was i didnt knew her last time bt now i do.. haha..

nxt up is again bt me.. ive been tinking lately.. hw do one survive a week of lonliness? mayb i dun feel it coz im werkin bt late at night i find myself roamin d net without a purpose.. or sumtimes jus starin at d wall.. tinking afar.. my quesns ar still unanswered.. well again.. time has proven to be my best fren.. -in forgettin my qualms and dilemma-.

2005-01-29T03:42:00.000+08:00

iz been a long long time huh.. i dunno wat i was missing. bt gd news first. i hav a job. at least ther's some income. next up.. i dunno watz wrong wif me recently or izzit juz d world. im at d lowest pt of my life. i have my bike my family my frens my money.. evrytin a guy can wan... bt then again.. im unhappy.. y? the key word is L.O.V.E.. Sumtimes it feels that life is much better wifout it bt then again wifout love thers no life..

Y am i talkin bt tis suddenly..? i dunnoe.. i used to like tis gurl whom i saw always when i was in secondary sch.. tat was like 5 yrs back.. n back then i didnt have enuf courage to ask her name or anytin.. n guess wat? i know her now.. after 5 damn yrs.. n d gd news is shes attached.. so im out of d "love-trap". then again.. AM i Happy?.. question mark question mark..

next up.. i find myself askin.. wat am i doin.. wats my purpose.. wat do i need in a girl.. y shuld i be attached.. i dun seem to find any answers.. im confused.. if i like a girl, shuld i go after her? or shuld i juz sit back n watch her go away? y shuld we guys always do the chasin.? nw i juz feel like sittin back n reminisce my lost time.. A gurl.. y do they exists..? question mark question mark..

lastly.. y am i feelin tis way? am i in love? i dunno.. it feels tat thers nuthin quite much left in luvin sum1.. simple layman term.. I GIV UP..

2005-01-05T21:48:00.000+08:00

A very happy new yr to all my blog viewers. ok u muz be curious how my countdown was like? alrite im doin up a webbie ok it. will keep u guyz updated. hehe.

next up, today is ma mums birthday. well iz been sum time since i last bought her sumthing. so i guess i reali needed to buy her sumtin since im workin alredi. this morning she showed me a swensens cake but told me it was too exp. i said juz get a normal cake. hehe. oh boy.. was she contented when i bought her a swensen ice cream cake (black forest chocolate cake). forget d price. it aint even worth a bit of my love towards her. oh well she might nag n nag at me but hey if shes not ther to nag, who would rite? =p she turned 40 today n i juz doakan semoga umurnya panjang n dijauhi segala penyakit insya-allah. well taz all for now gotta eat cake wif my family. hehehe.. laterz.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUM!

2004-12-28T20:53:00.000+08:00

helloz all.. 1st of all im freakin pissed off and happy at d same time. Y pissed off?
coz my family juz got back home. ok tatz fine. n ya'll know my mum d moment i wake up n stuff she started askin me biler nak bayar hutang saman wtf wtf wtf!! as if im not farkin werkin and not fuckin returning her money. blardy heck all d old crap she started to bring it up again. on a seriuos note iz better i work frm like 9am - 9pm n get home juz in time to sleep. gosh iz so fuckin irritatin to hear tat n i can guarantee u, i will throw d 550 bucks in front of her face n ask her to shut d fuck up. damn.

ok now im happy. coz i bought my tickets (along wif my two other frens) to KL. been pretty annoying askin ppl to follow me and lastly i went there alone. n boy did i get back home safely-without depending on other ppl-. tat make me irritated too. till i got a scoldin frm a fren of mine who said " y mus u do all d stuff. y cant u let ur frens do. kenapa jadi babu?!" well i have to say, kalau satu tak buat lain takkan jalan. so if i dun get it goin, nobody will. anywayz i owe u a vans shoe. haha.

taz it, once my pay check arrives by d time i get home frm kl. im gonna settle all my summons and my dues to her. fark it. cant take it any longer listening to her blabbering. n lastly, i prefer my life to be not associated wif any1 rite know. y?

COZ IS SO IRRITATIN TO BE IN LOVE. PERIOD.

2004-12-25T01:54:00.000+08:00

A very merry christmas to all ma christian jewish catholic angelic alcoholic aper2 lick frens. haha! gosh whole week has passed n ive survived a week working at AN OFFICE. office boy mah.. hehe.. nt bad la. very relax. except tat my enemies were my weary eyes always wantin to fall asleep. hehe. hey hey next week da KL TRIP!!!. best nyer.. ill do a webbie with video(tak janji)regardin d trip. happening conferm happenin..

well work work, bt i miss my social life. hp pun senyap jer these days. oh well save my bills rite =p. 31 dec is comin. yes i will win tat bet. i will win it. vivi if ur readin tis.. I CAN LIVE WITHOUT WOMAN N will CONTINUE doin so. Bt along the way met some nice acquatainces eg.. nanu..nie...kiot.. bla bla.. bt yet again sumtimes d smile tat u see isnt a smile after all. Rite?

tmr is christmas n gosh i have to work. ok ok. i mean i wanna work. earn extra mah. later can get married oredi. hahaha! haikzz tis week seems to be d lucky week. have jobs money n stuff. bt i guess money doesnt buy u evrythin.. almost all... bt definitely....

Not Love......

2004-12-25T01:46:00.000+08:00

Your Love Style Is...
Caring!

You seem to have it all worked out. You are emotional strong, warm and know how to love. More importantly you think with both your head and your heart allowing you to handle all romantic situations calmly. How did you get this smart!!

What is your Love Style? Find out at DatingTips.ws

haha.. i know i know.. when im free? ermmm.. hw bt tis weekend? we could go catch a movie? hahahahah!!!!

2004-12-19T16:42:00.000+08:00

hey im back. lotsa things been happening lately. haha. to tell it all things finally seem to be in my way. after long hardship, finally got a job. gosh.so relieving to know tat. btw my baby has been out. ahakz! n d 1st person to ride was well.. i shall juz call her "nanu".

had a trip wif her up north to jb yesterday. we watched d movie "ocean 12". damn iz one gd heist movie. n furthermore it was cheap!! yeah after tat we headed to restaurant sayam wher i had some pattaya n ikan bakar.. yummie.. sori guyz no pic la. well i had a nice time. finally able to take my mind off abt sum complicate things in my life. n to "nanu", i had a gd n enjoyable time wif ya. hope to meet up sumtime again.

back to me, been busy preparing for my kl trip. i reali hope tis one will pull it off. bee goin ther wif my two closest buddy. conferm gerek nyer.. iz BLING BLING TIME. hahahaha... juz cant wait for 30 dec. gosh.

life has been gd lately except for the summon i got. damn lta n damn tat ns guy frm wdls checkpoint. i 4giv bt dun 4get. blardy shit. btw special msg to norni, thanks for offering me d job. i owe u one big time. well i guess taz all for now. and at the end of the day, im still myself again. hahaha. well single life rawks. bt of coz, any kind soul wanna fill tat empty space are alwayz welcome. ahakz! kidding la. till then, i update laterz.

god bless me with a smile
take my sorrows a thousand miles
beneath d sun tat shines
there's still a soul tat keeps me alive.

2004-12-11T22:50:00.000+08:00

iz been a month since i last updated. i tell u peepz sumthin. i cant stand no more living at home. iz a living HELL. I MEAN HELL. to make things worst, im out of job, my bike is in d workshop. mounts of money keep coming up. im so freakin tired of all tis fuckin crap. i went for a interview juz now after being nagged by my dad.(fuck him) (fuck her as well). fuck evry1. n tat fuckin manager had to tell me of wat my fuckin sis did while she work there b4. n he tinks ive got d attitude my sis has. well fark it.

n i get home onli to get fucked up by my dad who said i shuld have stood up fer my sis. heck! my sis attitude sucks n she needs some help. wat help can i be by defending her.???!! farkin asshole. i get bombarded for no reason. n tmr is sunday. he is at home. i dun fucking care i wish to leave here n right now. farkin hell.

wat is it i cant behave? i cant take care of myself? or izzit juz me? he thinks im a 10 yr old kid who needs to be told of tis n tat. he needs to interfere in my work n stuff. can he LEAVE ME ALONE for one FUCKIN time??!!!!! Fuck it la. takder keja salah duduk rumah salah! n when i have a work n i get home late, "oh u treat tis home like a hotel huh??!" wassup wif tat.. ntahla. i cant be bothered. i juz wish to go to ns or better yet continue my studies. at least i dun have to put up wif all these "fatherly" piece of crap. fuckin hell.

2004-11-20T16:53:00.000+08:00

iz a saturday 1st week of raya n im at home.. how great can it get. sigh. niwayz juz to share a bit of my exp. had an outin wif my fellow dk members to my fren (allahyarham azman bin rahmat) house yesterday. as usual raya gathering. it was so saddening u know seein his mum cryin n all of us askin fer forgiveness. tahan2 tak nak tangis end up cry also. haha. as fer my bro up ther, rest in peace, we will take care of "mother". when my time comes ill see u up there =).

well d day b4 met fizah. my.. i was like......... awestruck lookin at her. nak cari org pakai tudung la buat isteri. hehe.. dunno waz up wif me these days but been gettin too attracted to ladies in malay scarfs. eg norazela is 1 of em. shes one helluva suweeeeeeeeeetttt lady. wow! back to fizah well met her parents n family. mcm reunion gitukan.. hehe. mayb.. one day.. =)

next up taufiq is into d final!! hahahah! bt too bad olinda is out. but not bad fer sum1 like her to get into top 3. cheers fer her man. but sylvester? well we will see how far he goes.. bt i reali hope taufiq wins.. he shuld man.. u go boy! kiwak da mcm sissy sia aku. lol! ok la geng nak gi jb. my frens comin over now so mus wait fer em. lecer man. taz all taking care! n ride safely. =)

2004-11-17T18:38:00.000+08:00

greetings.. Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri to my muslim frens... my my.. wat a day. sori fer not updating fer soo soo long.. too lazy n too buzy.. hehe. niwayz juz had my outing wif my ph colleagues yesterday. wow gerek giler nyer.. ahakz! i tink around 18-20 ppl went out.. not bad. ther were of coz some up n down couple fights la bla bla bla.. standard la babe.. jealousy all arises.. niway to nie, do get well soon n jgn asik merayap also. :p ok ok will upload d raya pics soon.. u guyz check it out under my "linkies" section. i will name it as hari raya ph outing 2004 (part 1). aite.. will update more soon.. cya peepz around!

2004-11-08T19:56:00.000+08:00

hey hey.. im back.. well today is monday. 6 more days to raya. haha!! new clothes evrytin new except for one thing. dun be bored. iz my "status". haha.. btw "she" msg-ed me yesterday. n i guess i made her irritated. watz past is past gurl. dun u come cryin or pleadin coz u guilty. heck. oh yar. finally i see d "in a relationship" status. haha.

next farkin hell im so damn tired. 2 straight days of painting d hse. but i tink i did a great job. biasakla. aliff kalau buat keja maner tak senonoh.. kwang³.=p hmmm... wat else is ther to say.. oh yar went to geylang n bugis on sat. as usual geylang was as packed as always. blardy hell. wat are all these ppl doin ther.. hehe ckp org aku pun samer.. lolx~!

neexttt... is NIE... haha.. ive been tinkin n dreamin n wonderin bt u... ahakz!! chey.. kiddin yar.. n if ur readin me.. dun msg me n ask y im writin bt u.. u juz came into ma mind. nver known a nice gal like u reali. some juz put up an act some juz play d game but i hope ur not d SAME. =)
to all those fuckin bitches who left me for good, well im glad u left me cz i dun need sum kinda bitch playin arnd wif me.. time to get real baby. n hell yeah. im not even bothered if ur wif sum other biatch fuckin around. to Nie, DUN be like em..

taz abt it then till then.. ill update again. tis one fer ya girl.

I look in the mirror, with you in my arms
And I see a reflection
Of a smile that says you believe in love
And just for a moment, I drifted away
But I couldn't stay cuz
A hint of love, a bit of fear
I'm tryin' to say
If I were you,
I wouldn't be here
If I were you
I would stay right where you are
I wouldn't come near this broken heart
Just turn around and leave here
And find someone who won't hurt you
Make sure that she still believes in love
Cuz I think my heart has given up
If I were you, I wouldn't be here
Ooh yeah

2004-11-06T02:12:00.000+08:00

hey hey.. whaddup ma man di dillio bang bang deng deng deng jeng2 wazzza! wah skt peh panjang! niway juz got back frm ma date. hehe.. amazing2 interestin.. fer d 1st time evrythin i believed in to be wrong was true.. heheh.. btw we watched "Shark Tale" juz now. what?! shark tale?!! YES SHARK TALE. lolx. i couldnt believe myself watchin "kiddies" show wif a gal? my goodness holy jesus christ subhanallah!! (corrupted muslim! haha!) hmm d show was way beyond wat i expected. it was pretty much ok fer my 1st "cartoon movie".

bt shark tale or rather oscar tale, i giv it 7.5 out of 10. hell it was packed n mostly were adults.. ??wassup wif tat adult watching kids show.. haha.. i wonder when d R(A) will have kids watchin em.. muahahahhaha~ nevertheless not a bad show pretty good. bt sad thing was when wanting to send her home.... gosh d rain came down.. wasnt tat heavy la.. kept on riding till reach her hm.. hehe. ok la 1st date out..

another thing, my dad's new car rocks!!! blardy hell da mcm subaru wrx sia.. will post a pic when i take a pic of it... cant wait to save up n take d license fer car man.. pheww! freakin cool to drive in tat car.. btw d car is a PROTON WIRA 2005 version. well i guess tatz all fer now.. gotta sleep soon tmr kena bgn siang.. oh ya vivi if ur readin tis.. aku kol kau esok bt d pit. nitey all!!!

2004-11-04T03:15:00.000+08:00

hey man~ i juz got home frm jb. farkin hell fer d 1st time ever i was stopped by those fuckin cisco wat police shit. 3 of em infact. on ma way to jb juz after d sg customs. fark! 1st they asked license license. cibai fine i showed em. stark up face blardy ns freaks. then tak puas hati ngan aku, minta I/c. fine giv it to em. then one blardy hell stupid guy ask "where's ur p plate??" i felt like fuckin him straight in d face " HEY MR MY P PLATE FINISHED ON 29 OCT 2004!!" Did he fuckin go to sch to learn mathematics???!! damn. still not happy wif me walked around my bike took one last look and said " ur plate damaged better go n replace". wtf??!!! i guess these freakin assholes reali got nuthin to do or they juz discrimate us dirtbikes. blardy fuck.

next, "she" msg me at msn juz now. how suprising it was. haha. "tryin to avoid me huh?" i wish i could say "yeah u got a problem wif tat?" girls dun fuckin know how to appreciate taz y i dun pretty much like to be bothered wif. nvm. tat spoiled my mood oredi. and tat was like 11.30pm b4 i went to jb. *thanks NIE for comforting me.. i owe u one.*

lastly, d happiest news of d day..... my BAJU RAYA HAS BEEN FOUND!!!! muahahhaha... damn i dreaded for this day to come n it finally come.. hw sweet it was to see tat shining n gleaming armour... chey chey.. hehe.. now d mood to celebrate is back! yahoo!! well lucky tat tailor she didnt lost my clothings. pheww~ btw.. things seem to get better nowadays. ive been ok n gettin better. still miss my ph times though. well taz all fer now. till then! amigoz!

2004-11-02T17:04:00.000+08:00

howdyz.. wt a boringgg day. sittin at home again. my goodness tis week im a busy man.. outing after outing after outing.. hehe.. duit pun kluar jer.. masuk takder.. ahakz.! did sum surveyin thru my friends, and found out couples mostly broke up in d months jun n july. suay months? not too sure. last week met fizah. man shes turned into a lovely gal. hehe. any1 dream girl man. nicey homey gal. well my nites have been pretty interestin lately. gotta know ppl frm diff walks of life.. love.. frens.. breakups... many diff things.. gosh.. tat leads me to thinking.. im still single.. lolx.. Mayb... oNE day.. IZ Juz Me And You. =)

Shed my tears amongst my fears
Burden my sorrows deep down inside
Waitin and reminiscing the time i've lost
Only to fall again each time i love...

2004-10-31T17:12:00.000+08:00

another rainin day n im at home. yesterday was a freakin great day~! haha.. i hit two birds wif one stone. heheh. went out wif ma boys yesterday.. sad i didnt bring down any cameras. nevertheless we headed to bugis market to get our stuffs jeans etc etc. d weather wasnt so good but my fren drove his dad's car n yeah we were like screamin our heads out inside d car. hahah! once at bugis bargain nyer bargain wif shop owner for two pairs of levis jeans. end up became frens haha! (ouh i got another number too.. :/ ) well after tat headed for beach road to break fast had some nasi pattaya n damn it was good.~ frm there we headed down to cuppage to play some pool game. heh i won 4 games out of 5. kekekeke~ n after tat came d interesting part.. of to geylang serai.

at geylang haha around 10.30 ppl were like ants. blardy hell couldnt walk. ah hah "hang jebat" was dressed in pink tis time.. (to those guys who know who hang jebat is). walked around met many of ma friends. gosh geylang/sg is soooooo small. bought some abg ramli nyer burger n keropok lekok? did i got d name correct? nevertheless my eyes was gettin washed enuff badly. too many pretty girls. hahaha~ but no number. one for d day is enuf man. lolx!

guess it was a tiring day but heck it was fun. reached home around 2 am. man how i wish i had a driver's lisence. hehe.. well taz all for now. another outing another update.~ cya!!

2004-10-29T15:57:00.000+08:00

hmm.. after like one week dozens of template i came up wif these one.. i know iz plain n stuff. but i juz wan a simple navigation taz all. not painful to my eyes.. man im not receiving any money for my festive season to buy new stuffs.. blearghh.. but wateva dun intend on celebrating too. who cares. my clothes are lost so d mood juz fades away. be goin to geylang laterz wif ma colleagues buddies. bring cable n camera. cannot forget. well ill update again tonite.

2004-10-26T01:56:00.000+08:00

hah! been some time since i last update tis freakin blog. sorri matez. thanks for all those who pressured me.. juz changin d template took 1 hr.. damn.. i promised to call sum1.. heheh.. later yarz.. well juz quick lil update!! im single (suxxxx blearhghhhh!), single n growin older. gosh.. ill update tmr. for now im happy wit tis.. we'll go into details tmr morning.. my personal life n bla bla bla... iz gonna be boring but nevertheless iz a blog.. so who cares.. well laterz!!

2004-06-22T02:25:00.000+08:00

Day 6 Of Separation

Been another day. same day working and stuff. sorry i didnt update yesterday mates. wasnt in d right mind after talkin to ma x.. shes feelin confused n stuff.. man.. tis totally sucks. But i guess i learnt that never take ur love one for granted. Take tis frm me guyz. Love isnt For GRANTED. I guess i did tat but now iz too late. Well today same thing for me. Work, play some pool game wif my ph fren and off home. Sigh. i talked to her again juz now.. i mean i can see her but iz beyond my reach.. wat shuld i do.. what shuld i do.. please sum1 tell me. but i have been movin on a bit. more smiles :) well i guess taz all for now. gotta lie down on my bed. n always thinking....

wat i gotta do now ..
to get my shorty back..oo ooo oooo
man i dunno wat to without my boo
oooo ooo..

2004-06-20T00:29:00.000+08:00

Day 4 of Separation

Today has just pass by. seems so dreaded n slow.. i went to work juz now.. i was reali gettin sick sitting by at home. sigh. i didnt get any news frm her. sometimes i juz wait even though i know there is nothing left.. my fren v, cried juz now.. i pity her alot man. been goin thru hard times like i do. tis is all life man.. i guess i got nuthin else to say. leave u wif these lyrics..

"im not a perfect person.
there's many things i wish i didnt do
but i continue learning
i never meant to do those things to you..
so i have to say b4 i go.
i juz wanna u to know.
i found a reason for me..
to change who i use to be.
a reason to start over new..
And the reason is YOU...."

2004-06-19T01:47:00.000+08:00

Day 3 Of Separation

I juz got back home. today shuld i say was d most tarchingzzz day i had. to begin off, met her u shuld know who. in d afternoon. pass her our pic. :(. damn it was so saddeninggg.. when i left her tears were fillin up in ma eyes. well dun be to emo k aliff. peace. after tat went to sgh. visit my fren azman. im sad again. tis time reali sad seeing azman state. he has a sickness. cant tell u guyz wat. his privacy anyway. i juz pray for him to get well soon..

Next i headed to woodlands. Left my bike there n went to town ecp esplanade bla bla bla. lepaskan stress maklum la.. n alone. well i did manage to find some peace alone though. nevertheless tink about it too much makes my mind go astray anyway. from orchard i walked all d way to esplanade. bit tiring but it was great. i headed back to woodlands taking d mrt. d feelin of public transport. sigh.

Met my dikir frenz at admiralty after that. well they did cheer me up a bit n i forgot bout her for d moment. u know breakin up is d hardest thing to swallow man. i hate it. later on she msged me me sumting sayin mayb we could get back together.. i juz ask myself.. will it be a long wait and worthwhile..?. im so confused..

now im sitting here again. same old place. love her love her not love her love her not. which shall it be.. how will it be then.. will it be still d same.. i guess i juz let TIME do the talking....

2004-06-18T02:38:00.000+08:00

Day 2 of Separation

Hey there.. same day for me.. still tinking bout her so much. i had nothin to do so watched d movie Chronicles OF Riddick.. damn it was soo coooolll! u guyz shuld watch it. after that had a pool game with ma ph frenz. but still my mind was on her. sigh.. i was supposed to go to jb with a fren but end up goin there alone.. wif d song " i dont wanna know" playin in my ears. again i had nothin to do so hop onto my aunts house n watch england match vs switz. englang won btw. 3-0. here comes d interesting part..

i called my ex. We had a talk for bout half n hr. Gosh im so so relieved now. evrytin been cleared up. me n her frenz now. well iz over but i cant tell u how relieved am i after hearing what she had to say. u guyz wanna know wat she said? mayb next time.. hehe.. other than tat.. MISTER MOHAMED ALIFF is gonna make his return sooonn.. jovial fun n irritating self.. i miss ma old self.. till then.. gd nite for now!!!

2004-06-17T15:23:00.000+08:00

let bygones be bygones.. 06/02/02 - 16/06/04

2004-06-17T15:15:00.000+08:00

DaY 1 of Separation

hi to all again.. im back again after a month. many things have changed. im juz on my own two feet now guyz. what were u tinking? yes.. sumtimes fallin in love can be easy but fallin out of love is d hardest. i learnt that much too late. my angel n me went separate ways yesterday. after 2 n half yrs. yes it was shocking. yes it was saddening.. but we live by d day. time will heal. it has and will alwayz do. from me i juz wish her all d very best with her new found love. as for me, cheer up a little will ya. we gonna live thru it. i leave u guyz lyrics by usher..

Deep down you know it's best for yourself but you
Hate the thought of her being with someone else
But you know that it's over
We know that it's through
Let it burn
Let it burn

2004-05-12T23:52:00.000+08:00

herlowz there once again! iz been some time since i last updated tis post. well been too lazy lately. hehe. well much has happened so i reali dont know where to start off. nvrmind bout tat. last sat me n my ph crew went out for a soccer cum outing. we had lotsa fun man.. kewlll~~ it was tiring and aching but the pure enjoyment was still there after all. we went to many places such as al ameen and stuff. i have attached a link at the side for you all to view. iz under PICTURES titled pizza hut crew outing. well last mon i went to sumwhere east wif ma gal. heheh.. had some "fun" too. couldnt take any pictures la. too private u know. hmmmzz many things have been happening in ph. couldn explain it more. life in there is like papparazzi. like i once said b4. one story never gets too old. oh yar my pay on 7 was a boom. hehehe.. tat was when we had d outing n filled our hearts out wif d delicously delicacies of "downtown east". oh yar on tat fateful day i fought too wif ma gal. we have since recovered :). well tatz about it to summarise it all. will update again if im not too lazy.. hehe. ciaoz!

2004-04-30T14:39:00.000+08:00

herlow peepz.. sori fer not updating. well tis week has been a record for me. wanna know y. the whole week i didnt go to sch. aite aite. mon there wasnt any class same goes to tue n wed. so i was lazy enuf.. haha! got debarred so was the use? i know im a spoilt brat. oh yar.. went to jb yesterday wit taufiq. it was giler la~~ 1st it was so damn hot tat day. i tink same goes to any other day. then my fuel was like until to the minimum. we filled petrol next headed to komta to eat. haha! couldnt find a parking place so we had to turn n turn. i tink those malaysians had a gd laugh on us! i ate chicken rice it was so damn nice man.. oh yar taufiq n me had to smuggle 3 box of cigaratus. damn we were nearly caught had the officer didnt check my pockets. so damn close.. shitttoz.. well wed at work was so damn tiring. i guess today will be much more worst. got another hr to go b4 my final showdown. finish man. conferm jam! haha! but knowin me.. fast werker wat.. lolx! ok folks gotta go now. till then....

2004-04-27T23:58:00.000+08:00

yo yo yo wassup!! kiwakz dah mcm mat kental siak.. hahaha! anywayz.. im back here and again a tale by mohd aliff. wahhaha! tmr goin jb wif taufiq isi minyak ar.. well my gf is startin werk in guess where.. PIZZA HUT! haha! oh yar.. my younger sis is also werkin in ph. wassup wif this ppl n ph... haha.. tis week fookin slack man.. no sch for three damn days. well i got nuthin to do now.. creating a newsletter for pizza hut. hehe. all hot frm the oven.. check it out man.. ok b4 i go here is a short story for ya'll :) [for those who understands malay]

Suatu petang selepas pulang dari kuliah agama di surau si isteri menceritakan apa yang didengarnya dalam kuliah tersebut kepada suaminya. "Abang, abang nak tau tak, ustaz kata bila suami dan isteri itu bersatu/ bersetubuh kan bang kann dengan cara yang betul dan menjaga syarat yang betul maka pasangan tersebut akan mendapat pahala sama seperti membunuh 10 ekor atau beberapa ekor syaitan". Kata si suami "yerr kerr. Tak apa malam ni malam Jumaat, masa yang sesuai utuk bunuh syaitan kann, betul tak sayanggg" sambil ketawa. Isteri hanya tersenyum panjang.

Selang dua hari kemudian, siisteri berkata "banggg, jom kita bunuh syaitan... bang". Si suami tersenyum panjang. Selang dua hari kemudian, si isteri berkata "banggg, jom kita bunuh syaitan... bang". "tak pe...tunggula malam". Esoknya si isteri berkata "banggg, jom kita bunuh syaitan... bang". Si suami diam sambil mengangguk lemah.

Esoknya siisteri berkata "banggg, jom kita bunuh syaitan... ".

Si suami tiba - tiba marah dan berkata ..........

"Ayang nie nak bunuh syaitan ke nak bunuh abang"

2004-04-26T13:44:00.000+08:00

hi there.. sori fer not updatin.. hahaz.. yesterday met wif ma 1st accident. lol! at a multi storey carpark near my blk. to b precise iz my area multi-stry. cant blame me man d floor was slippery n knowin i had offroad tyres. haha u say wat happens next. lol. anyway caught d movie "dawn of the dead". quite catchy but boring storyline. cant imagine wat the world would be like infested with zombies. haha surely to be entertaining. oh yar resident evil 2 comin in june i guess. cool~~~. n on sat.. i fought with ma manager. kinda of my fault actually. i like to disturb her n now i guess she totally lost it on me.. me n ma big mouth. sigh.. well im off to werk soon so gues ill update laterz~ till then.

2004-04-23T15:27:00.000+08:00

hi all~ while im at home sitting around. damn iz rainin. i cant pick up ma gerl. well hope she would understand. guess wat ma pay was freakin 127! damn! ntah la. mayb push towards ma next pay. well im juz passin time. nutin great has been happening lately. juz hope tis rain would subside.. :(

2004-04-22T01:02:00.000+08:00

ahhhh there she is... here's one more!

2004-04-22T00:56:00.000+08:00

hey iz been some time since ive updated! buzy ar babe.. standard ar.. eh. wanna see ma bike pic??! kekekke.. im so obsessed wit her. damn.. she werx.. lol. got nuthin to do now.. bored as alwayz will update tmr in class. well cya! check out d pics later!

2004-04-18T19:24:00.000+08:00

aye aye~ well sori 4 not updatin. at last finally i got ma bike! yeehaw! will post d pic soon. but i wasnt too contented coz it had some fixing to do. nasib aku slalu tak baik. damn.
well today iz sunday tmr dah skola balik. shitz~~ anywayz i didnt go to work on sat. haha! im reali bored man. werkin in morning shift n now i got nuthin to do. oh well. cya peepz.~ Dajjalsuci

2004-04-16T11:37:00.000+08:00

hi hi.. haha. hi hi bye bye keper! lol! today iz friday! tgif! hehehe!!! at last one more hour and ma big day. yesh ar... well im at d library rite now doin sum last min report for ma final yr project. standard ar. slack guy conferm als min work. hahhaha. well gotta run for now. nite.

2004-04-15T08:42:00.000+08:00

hahah!! for the 1st time, im in sch on THURSDAY! draggggedd maself out of bed. iz either 4 weeks or 6 months man. i gotta make tat freakin choice. anywayz d reality or shuld i say stark reality of NS i gettin near. been tinking of it non stop man. ohh yar i got a phunking by ma dad for not returning his ic. damn. one more day man to d big day. well lesson is starting so see ya!~ Dajjalsuci

2004-04-14T13:39:00.000+08:00

testin2 is there any pics??

2004-04-14T13:30:00.000+08:00

hmm aye~ at sch now.. damn went to sch 4 nuthin sux! there is no freakin class. oh how great can it get. oh yar my "big occasion" has been delayed again. for the fourth time. also ma fren vinod, he received d enlistement form from mindef. my god he is enlisting tis cmin 23 jun! argggghhh! i hate ncc life sure to hate army life. damn~! but wat to do, a boy gotta turn to be a man when he reached 18 or 19. guess my time will come soon too. anywayz slept at 6 am man.. did tat fuc*in 3dsmax assignment and now im done n over wif it! hahahah! at least there is nuthin to tink about anymore.. woohoo! my eyes ar weary need some damn rest. enuf of computes. till then. -Dajjalsuci-

2004-04-13T00:12:00.000+08:00

welcome welcome. juz got back frm work! today was freakin fun man had a lot of jokes n craps at piza hut. ouch ma stomach still hurts frm those damn freakin jokes! haha! a new guy name faizal juz entered d hut or say d Crazy Crew of The KitcheN famIly. ahakz! there has been some news of ma fren too in piza hut. sumthin serious.. cant tell u peepz.. aniwayz haha i cant stop laughin frm juz now. werkin in d kitchen has got me frm crap to more CRAP! tomoro thers no sch! (yeehaw!!) but gotta do ma 3d max man. sigh.. well im off to werkin on ma assignment. two more days to ma big day! watz d big occasion? juz wait n see!1 signing off -dajjalsuci-.

2004-04-11T18:41:00.000+08:00

heylo ppz.. nice to be postin again.. updates in ma life.. still takin mrt. sighz. i dunno when ma bike will be ready. anywayz angel has been very lovin lately.. hmmz guess watz d motive? hehe.. juz got back frm werk man. bloody tiring! well what kinda work is not tiring?? if u peepz know of one plz tell me. :p anywayz off to causeway pt soon accompany a fren of mine n after tat go his house. iz winning eleven time!! shuttooo!! goalllllllll!! hahaha! lastly i got 54 frens at frenster! kekekkekekeek! well cya guyz soon!

2004-04-09T15:29:00.000+08:00

hmmm juz changed my layout damn iz been like 2 or 3 weeks since i last updated tis blog. so sorri man. been pretty hooked up recently wif lotsa stuffs. there is still some ammendment to be done so check out soon.

2004-03-18T01:17:00.000+08:00

herlow~!! hmm much has been happening around.. too many to tell man... juz to summarise things.. bike gonna change! muahahaha! wat bike juz kip a lookout in this site. hmm been pretty tired man werking and all those lame crapness of life.. how much more worse can it get. anywayz i gotta pay fine man and ma bills.. sigh. regards to angel if ur reading tis.. well nuthin much to blabble about. cya peepz soon!

2004-03-11T00:21:00.000+08:00

welcome back. iz been a week since i last updated my blog. sighz.. too many shits to do. niwayz, i got my 1st ticket summon. damn. lucky 8 dolars. park at multi story no coupon. curse tat makcik! hmm work is ok. sch still sux. waiting for ns life only. ma gerl very ok.. reali.. ok giler nyer.. muacks! hmmm.. wat else happened. oh yar.. i saw tis yr new paper face winner. she looked totally like shit. gf aku lagik lawa.. hahahahha! btw a fren of mine failed his evaluation b4 TP(traffic police test) for the 5th time. i feel sad for you kip on trying. well lagik 3 more days holidays in iz slacking time.. take enuf shits and craps i will sure become fat. well dun wanna drag any longer cya'll soon. adioz!

2004-03-03T12:25:00.000+08:00

herlow peepz... wah dah lamer giler tak update blog.. btw yesterday which was one d 2nd feb, got stucked at bugis. reason?? i cant pass the erp gantry! fark! walk2 sampai tekka sia.. jalan2 lagik sampai deska sia! lol! anywayz life pretty darn boring. n regards to miss nunu. lol!~ vinod u still sux. fai gd luck nak amik tp. heheheh! nanti biler2 free i will update again.. now back to screwing those bloody bitches! muahaha~!

2004-02-25T14:39:00.000+08:00

hi there.. been a while since i updated my blog. sighzz sumbody help me wif my "sickness" of being unable to wake up earli.. guess conferm kena debar. btw, life been pretty ok. as usual gaduh lagik ngan dier. ta habis2 sia. fed up fed up. my fault alrite my fault. sch gettin more boring.. masuk ns terus jadi cisco pun cantik! haha! btw u guyz sux! muahahaha!!

jgn pisahkan daku ngan dier
tuhan tolonglah ku cinta dier..

2004-02-19T09:15:00.000+08:00

herlow herlow!! iz been a week since i updated my blog. heheh. sorry matez.. well juz to summarise up, been pretty busy lately(as usual!) lol! anywayz met up my net friends. big big suprise man. haha! herlow to ma gerl. *wink wink* my bike is ok oredi? did i tell u ppz.. anyway vinod u sux! hahaha!! common diss me! muahahahahaa~! btw biolz rock! ek ah ek ah tak takut tak takut TAKUT~~~ HAHAHHAHAHA!

2004-02-15T01:30:00.000+08:00

herlow herlow.. happie belated valentine's day.. hmm been pretty slag lately. quarrel to much wif ma gerl.. today sux totally sux. well i wont say no more. my bike is n d workshop.. sighz.. when will things get d better out of it. went to tat anugerah dikir. evrythin was ok xcept ma gerl wasnt there.. :( we had a big fight. dun ask me wat. im goin to turn in.. tomoro i shuld i say today is sunday. tis month n tis week reali sux man.. say no more. im done. peace out.

2004-02-09T14:08:00.000+08:00

hey there! well been two days. been pretty busy. there was no sch today. shucks. went for nuthin! waste my fuckin petrol. to top it all, my bike died at expressway. fuck! reali need to send tis bike to overhaul man. sick man.. anywayz watched d grammys at sch. hahahah! too many cameos man. celine dion "singing in d silence" mauahhahaha! n 50 cent mistakenly goin up to "receive" an award. hahaha! well nuf of my shit. i wanna slip. too stressed up oredi. fuck..

2004-02-07T00:11:00.000+08:00

a poem for ya'll..

Holy mother, full of grace
Bless my boyfriend's gorgeous face
Bless his hair that tends to curl
Keep him safe from all the girls
Bless his arms that are so strong
Keep his hands where they belong
Bless his dick, the one i sucked
Bless the bed, in which we fucked
And if my Mom happened to walk in
Bless the shit I'd be in.

2004-02-07T00:05:00.000+08:00

aloha! hmm i juz got back home.. fetch ma gerl frm sch.. wow.. so many oohs and aahss frm her frens! muahahaha! biasa lah moto lawa.. lolx! k k kidding jer.. anywayz.. next sat is valentine aka fuckin day.. hmm wat shuld i get for ma gerl.. sumthing cheap yet memorable. well gotta check ma mail. cya soon peepz! nitey!

2004-02-05T21:02:00.000+08:00

hey there.. hmm been a slag day.. my gal is sick..~ husk husk..~. may u get well soon.. well i finally updated my photos n more.. soon more yet after i get my digicam. wanna watch a.i at 10. well i guess theres nuthin much happening today. taz all folks. laterz!

2004-02-05T01:20:00.000+08:00

hi there~~! i juz got back home man... tired and shagged!! muahaha! u ppz gues wat?? i misses work juz now!! luper habis sia... i tot i wasnt werkin today until my colleague called n said im workin.. mus be tinkin of my gal too much i guess *wink wink*..! met her juz now n tucked her to sleep.. shes fine and soundly sleepin now.. well guess im gonna get suspended! sigh.. how forgetful can i get! anywayzzz gotta ZzZzZ! tk care! >:P

2004-02-04T00:40:00.000+08:00

hi there peepz~.. wat a day man.. work was ok juz now. i have managed to get d comments link active.. next up is d pics! so hold up aite.. juz ONE fuckin Thing spoilt my mood.. as u have guessed.. GERLZ GERLZ GERLZ! i cant stand it man.. i cant meet her due to my tight schedule. wat im supposed to do??! n when im free she doesnt wan to meet me giving lame excuses like " go n work lah~" fuck it! tis sucks man. no gf boring ada gf pun boring.. sialanz! u gerlz out there... y do u like to behave tis way?? to irritate us man? we work hard so tat we can have more money n not TO SPEND IT ON GERLZ of coz. haha.. i gotta pay my bills n my bike money.. man.. Y Y?? wat can i do to make it up.. in a week i can like meet her 3-4 times. n it depends.. iznt it enuff??? speak up man.. tis 6th comin to 2 yrs.. i dun wan it to tear apart.. man tis is killing me.. ader moto salah takder moto pun salah.. sighz.... signing out..

2004-02-03T09:37:00.000+08:00

zzz... sch is boring. boring = death of me.. i failed my 2.4! haha 14 min! lolx!
fuck too much i guess.. hahaha.. anyway sch finishing at 12 after tis gotta sprint home. need to catch up me sleep... cya peepz!

2004-02-03T00:54:00.000+08:00

hmmm does it appear.. sumtimes net sucks.. they dont appear as u wan em to.. sighzz..

2004-02-03T00:51:00.000+08:00

arrr after one damn hour fixing tat damn calendar.. at last.. victory is sweet. list down things needed to do:
1: upload pics
2: include links
3:add more stuff
4:fuck u pplz!
5: hahaha!

well im so tired after werkin.. gotta turn in soon. b4 tat gotta kol slyvia saint.. kinda miss her.. muahaha!
cya peepz!

2004-02-01T23:47:00.000+08:00

err.. what d heck is blog?? im so damn bored.. tryin to "cool" tingy out.. see if i will get bored of updating~! lolx! hmm pretty dull eh.. wait in mayb 2 or 3 weeks time.. ull be lookin at d mosst coolessst blog site... hahahhah!